I am not a fan of the misconception of beliefs filled with doctrin fallacies that encourages faith of one thing to another..
I see what.. Most overlook..and make judgement to what all else is..
to hear them say Hallelujah
than turn backs to the masons
and speak of allah in the same verses
only to be in church screaming how much they love jesus..
such a twisted contradiction
and if you look between my words
you’ll build such clause.
I’m gradually returning back to the source
a place where my true alignment is interchanging to a cause
I realized so much in the expansion of my thoughts.
..truth buried by lies
to only make sense..
I can only manifest what my inner cortex process
The universe is not as one as many view…
I never hesitate to look above the skies
to see the bigger picture..
at A throne of grace
you are nothing but a mere lamb
and those question
how long would I live to engage with those of lesser minds
to mortals substance who linger on?
that only speak false hopes.
or do you question yourself?
Deem judus by your faith
who knew you would be the See of a Judas
stock to betray
the one who loved you when you couldn’t love yourself
is what the preacher say…
I live within my verses where I am never alone
I am only a living soul willing as I am ready and never incapable
to say forgive me for my sins
you know i love jesus…
than turn faith again…
I am moving free at will
with a devastating ink flow
from my soul
shifting mind that is
manifesting from the old
to get a new view on
one that i view as
to expand on existence
Expansion of thoughts
I am in a metamorphosis of a new Mental State…
correlating without any disarray
to believe in ones belief
but to question it in the same sentence..
Do i contradict
I am never still..
I am only at will
did you get it yet or should i continue
interchanging at once conditioned life
Is it the words that make the code?
or is it that as a human you only look for codes and never the hidden phrases…
to blind to seee that its staring right in your face…
with many words of display
standing at the gates between heaven and hell
what do you do when
the world doesn’t stand up for you
what will you say
to the king
that lives amongst the sinners
to the kings
that was lied on
the kings that bled
as i sit and think
my ponders grow
to weigh in everything within my surroundings
only to follow my thoughts
as they are overlay
From the beginning to the end
from nothing to something
all to a point of knowing and not knowing at all
Expansion of thoughts
my mind manifeasted
Sometimes I wonder how my road wouldve been if I had you… Experienced you…Would ive been sucha fuck up… Would ive sored in school and never turned to gangs…Would ive been happy.. See niggas dont understand the effect it is to a young queen to not have that one Man to show them the roots of life.. Yes its hard for a woman to raise a man… But ones forget that a girl can be lost aswell.. The saying is that a girl always search for that Fathers Love.. And to me this saying is true.. I can sit up and yell how much i Hate you.. Depise You as a Human being.. Because you did stupid shit that couldve been prevented.. You dont realize that as a child I built hate towards my family watching those that got to have what a wanted.. And i depised ones close.. Relationships that bonded between daughter and man or son I had to view as anger build.. To watch my brothers run to the men that produced them and gain love.. To feel neglected never elected to uphold such love..
You showed me that you didn’t care when I was a child by not being there. Don’t you think that you should make up for all the pain. Unconditional love from a man? What’s that?
Why did I have to grow up without a daddy present
Daddy’s little girl
I didnt experience a father/daughter bond
I could feel like a princess to my father instead of claiming this crown without a relationship with him growing up ….
I think I turned out good
It still feels like something is missing
and even though I can run to one that didnt make me..
Shit still cuts deep..
I feel like if you completed the other half of the puzzle I wouldnt be so afraid to love a man..
Sometimes I just felt like if I had you I wouldnt have rebelled as much
I needed you
I needed a daddy
At 21 it’s a struggle to care
It’s a bigger struggle to let any guy in
Daddy’s little girl… Fuck that
A girl needs a father figure
Why couldn’t I have one?
one day even though you was that missing void
I’ll be able to open up my heart
try this thing called love
I heard it was a beautiful thing
But just know ill always resent you
for these fucked up ways ive grew
to only know….
she used to be daddys little girl
now shes out on her own
you can find her every weekend taking shots
smokin blunts to the dome
never calling back home..
fuck it attitude not a care
to see whats goin on
so caught up
caught up in the life of gettin high and gettin drunk
every time i see her she looking so young
so much life ahead of her but her eff ups
and flaws got the world swallowing her in
she popped pills.. sexed for free…
now the casket is closing
because tha life she had chosen
no guide.. daddy little girl..
a full fledge teen caught up in this world.
she deserved better
but she chose the wrong path
now i see her dad at the grave holding back
the tears in his eyes
that one hug..that one talk..could have changed it all
always had fears in his life daddys little girl
dealt life struggles.. he feared those choices
now hes sitting at the grave
she was full of life
and now shes dead to the world